What Inspires You?

Welcome to my little place in the web world! I am so happy to have you here! Thank you Sits for making my blog feel so special today, I have waited so long for this day! Please make yourselves at home, take a look around and feel free to leave a comment or 2. My blog encompasses so many things. I blog about my autistic son, my 18 yr old son in the Army, my 9 kids, my grand daughter, my new husband and my job. And sometimes, I just like to be a bit silly or inspiring. I hope you enjoy...


During the blogathon on Tuesday, it seemed the common question from my commenter's was, "9 kids?! How do you do it?". As I tried to think of a way to answer this question I began to realize that I have a whole lot of inspiration. (and apparently...patience) I guess when you are into your daily routine and you have developed a rhythm, you don't even think about it anymore. You just do what needs to be done without a second thought. That goes for single people, to married couples, to parents, grandparents etc. I do believe, however, that we all experience moments of "I can't do this again", but we manage to march on and get through it. We wake up the next day and go right back into our daily routine without so much as a thought. Why? What makes us able to deal with the same struggles day after day. Even though most of the time you get absolutely no evidence of it ever getting better or easier. For me, its the little things that give me inspiration. The big things help to give me the drive but the little things inspire me to get through the daily grind. I wake up everyday, in the same bed, in the same room , at the same time, with the same goals..."get through today in the best way possible and keep a positive attitude". Some days this is a major struggle and some days it is just plain easy. If Zachary hasn't slept well and has had me up numerous times, it is going to be a difficult day. If Sydney has come downstairs ready to play at the same exact minute that I am climbing out of bed to get ready for work, it is going to be a difficult morning. If I get to work and my boss or co-workers are in a bad mood, it's going to be a tough day etc. I know that I have to remain positive and upbeat in order to make the day take a brighter turn. I was born with the knack to make people smile and the desire to make every ones day a little brighter. When I finally get home and my husband is in a bad mood, my granddaughter is crying, Zachy is having meltdown after meltdown, Alex is angry about something and yelling at Cheyenne who is now crying, Sierra and Logan are complaining about there not being anything good to snack on, Emma being attached to her daddy at the leg and Sydney crying about every little thing....it is very difficult to remain positive, focused and patient while still trying to stay on task. But somehow, somewhere, someway...I get a little surprise inspiration from an unexpected place.
(I had planned on posting a picture of my inspirations but for some reason the file is corrupt. Story of my life! Oh well...I will have to rely on my uncanny ability to describe them to a tee!)

As anyone who has read my blog for awhile or who has experience with a child that has Autism knows, these children have to be taught how to show emotion and how to express their feelings. This is not something that they are just born with, like most children. I have waited for a very long 6 years to have my son show me affection and love. So imagine the surprise when as I pulled into the drive after work the other day, Zachy came running up to my door super excited to see me. He gave me the biggest hug and then told me he would be right back. He ran into the house just as fast as he could and in a moment, he was coming back out. He said, "I made this for you Mommy"...he handed a folded piece of pink paper that on the inside had the words, "I love you Mommy. I miss You when you are far. I love you, Love Zachary". I gave that little boy the biggest hug I could without squishing him and got a tear in my eye. I now have that "card" posted on my wall in front of my desk. It gives me inspiration anytime I need it!

So, what inspires you? How do YOU do it? How do you stay sane and manage to keep trying, keep marching forward? I would love to know. Because whether you find your inspiration in a handwritten, misspelled card from your special needs child, or a little unexpected note in your purse from your husband, telling you he loves you, or even something less personal like watching your savings account grow...I would love to know what inspires you. And I know that just by writing this post, I have more inspiration now than I did before I wrote it.